Standing at the starting line

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I love to run marathons. Yep, that’s right. I love to run marathons. I’m in love with the struggle, the rush you get from doing something so much bigger than yourself, the community you find among other runners and the crowd. I love it all.

The thing I hear from non-runners, or at least non-marathoners, is “I don’t know how you do it. I could never run a marathon.” My response is almost always the same.

“One step at a time.”

That’s the secret to running marathons. You have to take it one step at a time. It’s not about how far you’ve run or how far you have left to go; it’s all about the step you’re taking at that moment.

I can be present when I run. I can focus on just being right where I am and not getting too anxious about what’s behind me or before me. But the rest of life…that’s another story.

I’m anxious. I’m a newlywed who still worries about what my marriage will look like in 10 years. I have a 6 month old son and I worry about who he’ll be when he’s 20. I love being a mom, but I worry about how many pregnancies I can endure and at what point I’ll say enough is enough. I’m a runner who longs to become faster and stronger, but worries my best races are behind me. I recently bought several houseplants and because I can’t see them growing I just assume they’re dying. And I worry that I’ll never get even that right.

Maybe you can relate. Maybe you’ve just barely crossed the starting line and you’re already looking for the finish line. Maybe you can’t be here because so much is going on over there.

If you’re looking for tutorials on how to be the perfect housewife, this isn’t the blog for you. If you’re looking for training tips to run your fastest 5k, this isn’t the blog for you. If you’re looking for marriage advice, please tell me what blog you find because I could probably use all the help I can get!

This is a blog about struggle. The fight for balance in life. One woman’s journey to find herself in the midst of ever changing roles. My hope is for someone to read this and say, “Yes. I get that. I’ve been there.”

But let’s not forget about hope! And joy! Because every so often we get things right. We find balance…if only to lose it again shortly. But those brief moments of “Ah ha!” I want to share those too in case it helps make your life easier as well.

I hope you’ll journey with me. Or maybe just visit every so often. But I won’t worry about that. Right now I’m just at the starting line and trying my best to focus on this first step.